“I wrote this song trying to describe my feelings of abandonment and feeling like a fuck up to my parents as a kid. Even though I didn’t realize I was trans at this age, I imagine me runaway being such a trans girl thing to do. This was the peak of my emo years, which was a way of experiencing with gender one way or another to eventually discover I was a agender genderless trans girl. The song references a time when I was 12, where I ran away for a couple of hours back when I lived in my home state and took the highway because I didn’t know where else to go. I actually was trying to get to the mall. I never made because the cops beat me to it; apparently someone on the highway had called them. This event was around the time I also heard that I was leaving a place I had roots in to move to northern New York, and I really had no choice in. I am using the highway as a metaphor to how I still feel lost now in myself, and roots being so far away from them in The Pacific Northwest.“
Lawrence Walker is a butch, sad, emo trans girl from the sticks and stones of Tha Burg.
released April 18, 2018
This performance was recorded by Heartspark Press on April 13, 2018 at Gallery Boom in Olympia, Washington.